A Few Random Words

[mala_14]

Self-loathing is not a comfortable feeling. We have to do portfolios and exit interviews for school. The interviews are stupidly mandatory and if you don't go to yours then you don't get to go to convocation. The portfolios aren't mandatory but if you don't do one you have to have a talk with the vice-principal. Nice intimidation tactics there. The entire concept pisses me off and I really did not want to do a portfolio. It goes against my principles to do stupid things for no reason. I did do my portfolio, rather crappily I might add. It is, however, in a red binder. Even though there's not much in it, it makes me sick that I did do it. Thus, the self-loathing. Going against my principles depresses me. There are so few people who stick to what they believe in that it makes me feel like I should be more responsible in that area. So to anyone who sticks to their principles all the time: Power to you. Good work.

Also, our administration has cancelled our skip day. We're in grade 12 so we planned a day to skip and it was to be this Friday. Usually the grade goes to the beach or something but our weather was kind of iffy to begin with so we were going to go to the park instead, but then it snowed so... However, the vice-principal (AGAIN) went around to the classes, quite smilingly I was told, and said, "To give you all a hand since you're feeling stress with school, you must attend classes on Friday. Anyone who doesn't is suspended Monday and Tuesday." If you're sick you also need a doctor's note. Now I don't know who is going to go to school or the doctor's for a fever or something like that. Espcially since I've been informed that they often charge for doctor's notes. The stupid thing is that if you were to skip any other day there wouldn't be any consequences at all. It's ridiculous. I said we should change this Friday to drunk day and show up at school drunk. One of my friends came up with the excuse, "I thought it was supposed to be skip day so I started drinking, but then I found out we had classes so I came." Argh! School makes me SO ANGRY.

On a totally different note, I have begun work on my first historical sewing project for me. It's the 1820s-1840s corset from koshka_the_cat.com. I drafted up the pattern and did the first mock-up. Two pearls of wisdom I have gained from that experience. 1. Pins hurt when they're stabbing you everywhere. 2. Trying to fit something by yourself on yourself is hard. Thank goodness for my mom's dummy downstairs. After working on that thing it fit a lot better on me. Next step is to do another mock-up in what I believe is some leftover cotton drill. I think this puts me on project 280 for projects begun and currently unfinished. There's that embroidery, the other embroidery, the scarf I was knitting (which might come in useful now with the snow. It snowed again today.), the clothes for my doll, my grad dress, and my denim jackets. Oh my. Well it's late and I should get to bed.